The Hills star Whitney Port has had a miscarriage, taking to social media to share details of this difficult experience.
Content note: This story discusses miscarriage.
“I had a miscarriage”
Whitney and hubby Tim Rosenman are parents to a little boy named Sonny. Their toddler is two years old and Whitney says she’d gone off her birth control as the couple decided to start trying for another baby in the loosest way.
Whitney did conceive but the pregnancy ended shortly after it began. She chatted to Tim about this sad experience on her podcast With Whit in an episode titled I Had A Miscarriage.
While the pair were hoping to add to their family, Whitney admitted she was “extremely ashamed and guilty” because when she realised she was pregnant, the reality hit hard.
She says she “felt scared because of all the sacrifices and what I was going to have to go through again to have this child.”
She lost the pregnancy at six weeks, eventually undergoing a dilation and curettage (D and C) procedure to remove any trace of the pregnancy from her uterus.
“I can’t say I feel relieved,” Whitney told Tim as she recovered. “I feel sad because the whole thing is just traumatic. It’s traumatic to think about your body going through this and something being in you that could have been something like a Sonny.”
“I feel sad. But I do also feel happy that my body is still my own right now and that this isn’t like an extra thing we have to plan for.”
View this post on Instagram
This is really hard for me to write. Two weeks ago, I had a miscarriage. The amount of various emotions I felt in the past couple weeks have been extreme…from shock to sadness to relief, which then led to guilt for feeling that relief. My identity has been shaken in regards to who as a mom and human being. I’m currently in the process of learning to accept that my feelings are valid no matter what they are. Whether or not people feel the same way as me or not. They are my personal emotions that are the result from my own journey. The video above is a glimpse into the story and coming to terms with how I feel. I welcome anyone to share their stories or feelings. I want my platform to be an open place where we can share difficult conversations. To see more of this video click the link in my bio. and to hear the full conversation visit my podcast #WITHWHIT
Not quite ready
Whitney also shared some details of this loss with her Instagram followers, uploading a snippet of video from the podcast and explaining what happened in the caption.
“This is really hard for me to write,” she began. “Two weeks ago, I had a miscarriage. The amount of various emotions I felt in the past couple weeks have been extreme … from shock to sadness to relief, which then led to guilt for feeling that relief. My identity has been shaken in regards to who as a mom and human being.”
“I’m currently in the process of learning to accept that my feelings are valid no matter what they are,” she continued. “Whether or not people feel the same way as me or not. They are my personal emotions that are the result from my own journey.”
The mum-of-one noted that she wants to have open conversations about difficult things via her platform, and invited discussion about miscarriage.
“Sad and confused”
Whitney’s followers were keen to share their own experiences and thoughts.
“I am so sorry for your loss,” one wrote. “Your vulnerability and authenticity touches my soul. You’re right, it’s okay to be sad and feel every wave of feeling.”
“I’ve been through the same thing when my daughter was 11 months old,” another follower posted. “I had the same struggle of not feeling ready and being scared of having two children so close in age and all the struggles that go along with that. I miscarried at 10 weeks. But I had the same guilty feeling of being relieved that I didn’t carry the baby to full term. It was rough both physically and emotionally but it just wasn’t the right time. Just know you’re not alone in this.”
“Thank you for sharing,” someone else wrote. “So many women can relate and I think it helps everyone to share. I’m so sorry for your loss. I went through this in April and still feel sad and confused about it.”
If you – or someone you know – has experienced the loss of a baby, please visit sands.org.au to access resources and support.