Heartfelt photos that keep the memory of Hope alive

Hope Heppleston main image

Hope Heppleston main image

Three beautiful pictures adorn a wall, side by side, at Sally and Simon Heppleston’s house. To the unknowing eye, they’re just like those in so many homes – peaceful newborns in their first days out of the womb. But one of these photos holds extra special meaning.

It is one of the few photos Sally and Simon have of their eldest daughter. Hope died in utero at the very end of what had been a smooth and healthy pregnancy. Tests later found she had contracted an infection in her last few days that her tiny body couldn’t fight.

On August 19, 2008 – 40 weeks and five days into her pregnancy – Sally delivered Hope, a perfect-looking, eight-pound baby. As she cradled her daughter in the hospital bed, she received a message that someone wanted to send a photographer.

“We thought, ‘that’s weird, why would someone want to do that?’,” Sally says. “A few hours later this guy showed up. We were just a bit dumbfounded and said, ‘don’t you know this baby’s not alive?’. He said, ‘that’s what we do’.”

Hope Heppleston

The man turned out to be Heartfelt photographer Gavin Blue. Heartfelt is a network of volunteer photographers who take professional portraits of children who are stillborn, premature or seriously ill, from 22 weeks’ gestation to the age of 16. The free service – which includes a package of prints and a USB with all the files – is used by 80 to 100 families a month across Australia, and has recently started in New Zealand.

Gavin, now Heartfelt president, joined the network after his own daughter, Alexandra, was stillborn in 2006. The Australian Community of Child Photographers became Heartfelt in 2010.

As well as portrait sessions in hospitals and homes, Heartfelt retouches amateur photos taken by hospitals and families, and digitises families’ old Polaroid images or prints. In the past 12 months it has also provided 100 camera kits to hospitals so they can be better equipped to support families who lose children.

Gavin says like him, most Heartfelt photographers have experienced a loss. He says taking the photos is always moving. “There’s a great feeling of sadness for the family, but it’s not overwhelming. It’s an honour to be able to give them this gift and provide these photos for them,” he says.

Hope Heppleston

Sally says she almost turned Gavin away, but somehow through her grief she knew she should let him stay. Six years on, Sally says he – and her friend who had the foresight to call Heartfelt – have given her family one of its most precious gifts.

“I hate to think where we would be if we didn’t have the photos, because six years down the track the memories are a bit hazy,” Sally says.

“Once upon a time stillborn babies were whisked off and you were told to forget, but now you’re encouraged to make as many memories as possible, and photos are part of that. And these are not just iPhone photos but really nice photos – you can’t really tell she’s stillborn.”

Sally has one of the photos on her iPhone screen and others scattered around her home. “I have the other two kids to look at all the time, but I keep her photo in lots of different places so I can look at her every day without even thinking about it,” she says.

Hope Heppleston

Six babies are stillborn in Australia every day.  Sally says services such as Heartfelt can be a huge source of support and comfort for families. “I hear it all the time – people know families who have lost the babies and don’t know whether to call Heartfelt. Even if the family thinks they don’t want it, they will never regret having them (photos) taken. We spent nearly 24 hours in the hospital with Hope – that’s a long time compared with what other people get, but it’s still nothing, it was over in a flash. You don’t get that time back.”

Gavin recommends gently suggesting Heartfelt’s services to either the family or their carers. “It’s not for everyone, but we hear time and time again that after the people stop calling and the nursery gets packed up, at the end of the day all they’ve got is the photos,” he says. “One of the things you’re really concerned about is forgetting, so having some photos of that time … it’s validation that your baby really was here and was really loved.”

Heppleston family 2014

Fifteen months after Hope, Sally gave birth to a healthy boy, Angus. Daughter Juliet was born on August 18, 2011, the day before Hope’s third birthday. This year, the Melbourne couple should be getting ready for Hope’s sixth birthday. Instead, they are preparing to fly to Sydney to run the City2Surf in her memory.

Every year for Hope’s birthday, the couple and their families have donated to the Stillbirth Foundation Australia. Last year, Sally and Simon decided enter the City2Surf to raise money in her honour. They raised more than $4000 for the foundation, and hope to top that amount this year.

Sally and Simon at City2Surf

Sally says support for families who lose a baby is already better now than in the past six years, thanks in part to social media forums and groups. These are important, she says, because stillbirth changes families’ lives immeasurably and irrevocably.

“It’s still raw and fresh for us, but for everyone else six years is a long time,” she says. “It’s still such a conversation killer and taboo. People are still confronted by it. It is confronting, but it is our reality.”

To donate, go to Sally and Simon’s City2Surf fundraising page. Sally also runs a small charity, Fairy Tales for Hope, which sells gorgeous illustrations of popular fairy tales to raise money for Stillbirth Foundation Australia.

(Images via Heartfelt / Emily Black Photography)

Michelle Rose

Michelle Rose

Michelle is a journalist and mum to two girls who are obsessed with dinosaurs, fairies, pirates and princesses in equal measure. She lives in Melbourne's east with her husband, daughters and a giant, untameable labradoodle. Michelle loves all things vegetarian, wine (it's a fruit) and online shopping.

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